floating

A Beautiful Mess / Jason Mraz

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words they're paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess, yes it is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And the kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are, Here we are
Here we are

We're still here
What a beautiful mess, this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is "Yes"

Through, timeless words and priceless pictures We'll fly like birds not of this earth

And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together

And we, tore our dresses and stained our shirts
But its nice today. Oh the wait was so worth it.

Feelings...nothing more than feelings

Last post was in March?! YIKES. I haven't been journaling either... Probably because:

1) I want to start fresh with a new journal. The one I've been using since the apple juice incident was start in 2007. I guess just having my thoughts from two different times in my life, so close together doesn't feel right.

2) I like getting new journals.

I have started another Spring Quarter at NSCC and its going alright so far. I'm taking Elementary Statistics (my last prereq for the HIHIM program) and Painting. I like statistics because I think my teacher is pretty good. He's tough but I should appreciate that especially if I intend to actually learn something. I haven't bought my book yet. I know, I know. 3rd week into the quarter without a book = not good. I'll get it tomorrow. Probably. Maybe.

Painting is amazing! I was super sad when I thought I would have to drop it though. Luckily, I have a boyfriend to talk some sense into me. (Thanks MJ) My teacher is a 60 something-no-bullshit kinda guy, who intimidated me at first. I hate it when people read what I'm writing over my shoulder, so it's even worse if someone does it while I'm painting or drawing. I had to get over it eventually because he does it all the time. So many of my classmates are really talented. I just hope to learn more and hopefully improve.

My good friend Noel is here on leave from Italy! I can't believe he's already leaving tomorrow :( We were able to see each other the last two weeks. Hopefully, I'll be able to visit him before he gets stationed elsewhere. I want to travel!! Arggh.

I applied to UW's Health Informatics and Health Information program on Tax Day. I must say, I am a bit nervous/anxious/scared. Everyone that I've talked to who know about it/graduated from it say it is super easy to get into. I don't know if that makes me feel better or worse. If I don't get in, I'll feel crappy because I couldn't get into a super easy program. If I do get in, well, I'll be effing happy! Haha. Seriously, I don't think that getting into any program at any four year university is going to be "super easy." I find out on or before May 15th, my god sister Charmane's birthday. CROSSING FINGERS.

Work is good. I'm still just happy to be working. After my first pay check, I can't believe I stayed at Victoria's Secret for so long! 3 years and I got paid in pennies it seems. Now that my UW app is done, it's time to start that job hunt again! Congrats Sheena for getting a job at Fred Hutch! You give me hope!

I haven't been working out lately. I can feel myself getting weaker. I'm planning on running tomorrow and going to my first hot yoga class tomorrow. I want to get back in shape! The gym is having another challenge come May so I gotta get ready!

I guess that's all for now. I've had good days and bad but I've learned to be grateful for the life I have and the wonderful people in it.

Speaking of wonderful people......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN! :D